Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Life's Good!


Here we are 11 (teaching 12, now) days into the new year! And while baby steps have definitely helped progress me towards where I wanna be life, not a whole lot has changed. Then again, it has only been 12 days. How much change can one expect? But I digress. I have no real rhyme or reason for this post, but here I am. Long days and late night thoughts can do that to a lady. I'm sitting here watching Netflix bingeing on Malcolm in the Middle, reminiscing about the easier days when my biggest worry was being embarrassed by my parents. I never agreed to this adulting thing and quite frankly I don't care for it.

I didn't agree to spend 12 years (give or take) of my life in school learning mindless nonsense I promise you I haven't used since I walked out of those doors. I didn't agree to sell countless hours of life for mere pocket change. I didn't agree to have people lie to me, steal from me, betray me, etc. But through the challenges I've faced I have become so much stronger. Mentally and emotionally. I'm slowly but surely learning not to dwell on things I can't change or have no control over. Like I said, baby steps.

Saturday, December 24, 2016

Christmas Eve! Yayy!


Hello, hello! It's unbelievable tomorrow is Christmas! Where has aallll that time gone? 2016 has absolutely been the most trying year of my life thus far and I am excited to be able to finally kiss it goodbye! This year I lost my job, got divorced, had one of my kitties pass away on me and probably more I just can't think of, or don't care to mention. lol. But I'm glad I made it to the end because there were times when I doubted myself. But I am very optimistic that 2017 has better things in store for me than 2016 did. Even with those obstacles I can't say I'm not thankful because it's all made me stronger but damn. I need a break! I can't say I'm ungrateful either because I know regardless of my circumstances I have more than a lot of others.

I could go on and on about my trials and tribulations but I'll just use this opportunity to capitalize on the biggest lesson I've learned this year. I learned that I could go through things like that, seemingly one setback after another, and I can survive. Like I said, there were times when I doubted myself. My strength. My determination. My resilience. All of it. Hell there was even a period where I swore I was gonna die. Hysterically crying, shortness of breath, the feeling of the walls closing in with no escape, etc. But before I knew it day one was done, then the first week was behind me, followed by the first month. Setbacks are an unfortunate part of life, you don't always have a choice in those matters. But it is your choice whether or not you come back from them. I did.

Monday, April 4, 2016

Domino

Hey y'all!

Just a tinsy-winsy update to show I'm still alive and kickin'. 2016 has absolutely been a little hectic thus far. But I gotta believe everything will pay off in the end. I've started a DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy) group last month, so I'm hoping that's a step in the right direction as far as regulating my emotions and everything goes. I feel a little better than I did before, so that's sayin' somethin'.